“You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.”
I remember when I was a young teen my grandparents brought me to church on a Sunday evening. I always weaselled my way out of evening services because I felt God and that frightened me, but this week was different.
I remember sitting off to the side, by myself and crying. Crying for no specific reason, but the tears were flowing. A lady in our church came up to me and gently put her arm around my shoulders and told me “did you know that God collects our tears in bottles?”
That’s all I remember. I was comforted by that thought but also confused. Why would God do that? I’ve always been a crier so He must have had millions of bottles stored up by then of my tears alone.
I realize now that God really, really loves me. I’ve always struggled with feeling “unlovable” but now I’ve come to realize that He just loves me.
I was standing on the platform of our church leading worship a few weeks ago and struggling with a situation. I felt broken and so hurt and thought to myself “what would God say to me right now, He would be so disappointed in me” Instantly God did speak to me, and simply said “He would tell you He loves you”
Why would He feel differently towards me than any of His other children? Where along the line did I lose sight of the big picture.. His perfect love for me?
Don’t be ashamed of your tears today, for He will simply store them up. He knows every single sorrow and records them, and that is a perfect, infinite, powerful love.
God, help me to understand Your love for me today. Thank you for Calvary and the price You paid for my life. I’m thankful that You are a personal God and always so close.