“In her deep anguish Hannah prayed to the LORD, weeping bitterly. And she made a vow, saying, LORD Almighty, if you will only look on your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the LORD for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head.” 1 Samuel 1:10-11, NIV.
Desperation and Faith
Like Hannah’s moving prayer, my life began with desperation and faith.
My mother received news from the doctor that her body had a condition that would prevent her from conceiving another child. Her heart was shattered into innumerable pieces as her dream of having another baby crumbled into the abyss of hopelessness.
Something began to shift in my mom’s heart—she began to speak faith.
The word of God is replete with abounding promises and miracles, so she decided to declare certain scriptures in prayer. She reminded God of His promises to women of faith, such as Sarah and Hannah.
She would envision being pregnant by putting a pillow underneath her blouse while looking at herself in the mirror, pretending to be healed and with a child forming in her womb. This may sound silly to someone who has never walked the road of infertility—but to someone who is desperate for a child—this was an act of sheer faith.
For eight long years she invested a wealth of prayers and tears into the ether of the supernatural realm, not knowing the outcome, but pressing onto her promise. And, for eight long years she fought a war between doubt and faith and battled between hope and hopelessness.
Broken, my mom walked into church yet again, with a silent cry of her heart beating for a child. The evangelist, without knowing her situation, walked up to my mom during service. He placed his hand on her forehead and said, “There is new blood flowing through your veins, be healed in Jesus name.”
That night my mother was healed completely.
Nine months later, I was born.
My mother learned that God may send barrenness our way to cause us to trust completely in Him.
There might be an impossible situation that you are facing right now and you have been weeping bitterly before God. You’re heart may feel like it’s in a million pieces, but remember this:
Miracles operate in the realm of impossibility.
There is hope.
Prayer: Lord, I have an impossible need in my life right now and I have pleaded for your provision but I am still waiting on You to answer my prayers. My heart grieves as I wait on You and I do not understand what is taking so long. Help me to trust You, regardless of how You decide to answer my prayers. I know that You can do anything and I choose to believe in the impossible.