He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. Psalm 91:1-2
I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth. He will not suffer thy foot to be moved. Psalm 121:1-2.
My husband loves action movies. Like, loves them. And, he loves any movie with a spy or members of the secret service.
In fact, three months after we got married, he had a job offer with the Secret Service in Washington, D.C. It was his dream job ever since he was a little boy. To be honest, I was not thrilled about this opportunity. So, we sought spiritual counsel and one of our mentors said, “You will either be a servant of God in ministry or you will be a slave to the government.” You see my husband has a call of God on his life to reach a region, not just a city with the gospel. And, even though this opportunity was every earthly desire coming true, it would have steered him away from pursuing his divine call from God.
I say all of that to let you know that he, in my opinion, vicariously lives through the characters in these films. He thinks, “This is what I could have been doing if my wife, and if God would have let me.”
It’s very rare for anyone to think a pastor is as cool as a spy.
How many times have you witnessed an action movie character continue to fight after they’ve been shot or defeat an evil mercenary despite the fact they’ve been stabbed in the leg multiple times? It seems like they are impervious to pain because they continue to engage the enemy, but that is an inaccurate assumption. What is really happening is an emission of adrenaline overpowering their pain receptors. It isn’t until they stop fighting and are left in the quietness of their victory when they look down and notice their clothes are stained with their own blood.
That is when pain sets in.
Pain comes when they realize that they’ve been seriously injured. It is at this moment they have to make a choice to seek medical attention. There will be situations in our life that will force us to stop dead in our tracks. We are the action star of our lives, working and living life while being seriously injured. Deep wounds and merciless memories may resurface and we may experience a new level of anxiety.
There Is Hope
If you’ve looked down and realized that you are emotionally and spiritually bleeding out, it’s not over, there is hope.
Healing takes time; please do not be discouraged if it takes more than one prayer, and longer than one day. If you look one day, you may see a scar, but do not be disheartened.
Oftentimes people shy away from quiet moments. We allow the adrenaline of busyness to consume our lives because when we are alone with our thoughts or have a few moments to ourselves without anyone needing us, we realize there are unresolved issues that we have been avoiding.
Wounds will not heal if they are pierced again and again.
You may be inclined to ignore the warning signs that have materialized, but think of these emotions that have been excavated as a sign of hope. It is not God’s will for you to live stressed, anxious, ashamed, or angry.
God, in His mercy, desires you to not only be healed, but to be made whole.