Motherhood is more than sleepless nights, seemingly endless feedings, and desperation to find a new routine. Motherhood is full of moments of unconditional love.
My heart grieves at the thought of a child being torn away from the nurture of their mother. In their vulnerability, who do they turn to for comfort, nourishment, and love? There is no greater honor in my life than to hear my little girl cry and to be the one who can soothe her tears.
It is terrifyingly beautiful to have this weight of responsibility to take care of this tiny human who is completely dependent on me for her every need.
My birth story is like so many others, it ended with an unplanned cesarean delivery. Under the weight of anesthesia, I will never forget the sound of Jubilee crying for the very first time. That tiny cry filled my heart with so much love that all I wanted to do at that moment was tell her, “mommy is here, I will take care of you.” My physical body was completely numb and I was unable to move or hold her, but my heart felt every tier of ardent love toward this beautiful creation I had yet to fix my eyes on. I didn’t have to see her to fall in love and she didn’t have to prove herself worthy for me to give her my love because she had it fully from the first prayer I prayed over her; before she was conceived in my womb.
Through my love for Jubilee, I can see our heavenly Father’s love toward us.
If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him? Matthew 7:11.
Our heavenly Father doesn’t need a reason to love you. You do not have to prove your worth to show Him you are deserving of His affection. He isn’t demanding you to achieve more to earn His attention. He loves you; wholly, completely, and exclusively just as you are.
One of my favorite parts of motherhood is when I pick Jubilee up when she is crying and her tears retreat as she melts into my embrace—she knows she is safe in my arms. When God hears your cry, He says, “Here am I, dear child, come rest in my arms, I will hold you and comfort you.” When things do not go as planned, He will gently remind you, “My thoughts are higher than your thoughts, and my ways are higher than your ways.”
The world’s affections are fleeting and are conditional upon your abilities, talents, and willingness to compromise. Most of you have endured the heartache of conditional love; whether it was romantic or relational and have felt devastated that you couldn’t “add up” regardless of how hard to try.
Our Abba Father knows every detail of your life and still pursues after you. The Lord desires to nurture you and take care of your needs, but it is up to us to desire to be endlessly loved by Him.
Will you reach out to God today with your brokenness, your heartache, your tears, and your fears? Pray that you would feel His embrace and His unconditional, abiding love. God wants to lavish His affection upon you today, but like any relationship, we need to accept His love and reciprocate His affection. Today, let us draw near to our Heavenly father.