“I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful.”
2 Timothy 4:7
2018 started off with a bang for my family. My Grandfather went home to be with Jesus, my daughter got Croup, my husband had a minor car accident, then I had two wisdom teeth removed. I was grieving, tired, stressed and so, so hungry. This was all within two weeks. I had two weeks to try and process everything that had changed and happened in my life.
I had been struggling for awhile before this though if I’m being completely honest, so these were the last few blows I believed I could handle. I became consumed with my circumstances, rather than with my Creator. I drifted from His word, blaming it on being too “tired” from not sleeping properly the night before. All of this made everything so much more difficult to handle. I no longer had a strong foundation, but a weak and crumbling one. I’ve learned it doesn’t take very long for this to happen.
Wanting to just throw in the towel, I sat down to pray and I felt God speak to me. Finishing a marathon isn’t about maintaining the same endurance the entire race. Your energy level will fluctuate as you press on toward the finish line. I will not always be on the mountain, being confident and refreshed. Not quitting isn’t always about feeling strong, but sometimes it’s sheer, exhausted, pained determination.
The important thing is not to quit. If you only have small praise to give, give your small praise. If you only have a few broken pieces of your day to surrender to Him, surrender what you have left. You will not always feel like running, but taking small, baby steps is just as important as a sprint.
I am thankful for Your loving patience today God. I struggle so much sometimes, and want to give up but I know You will never leave me or forsake me. You desire even the broken pieces of me, so I surrender those today God. Use this life for Your glory.
Thank you for being vulnerable and real. Being a busy mother of four girls who homeschools and has a lot of other obligations, I get to feeling this way too. I know I don’t always measure up to others or even my standards of what and where I should be, but I’m still walking, moving closer and closer to Him.